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Let the ranting continue.

Wed Oct 21, 2009, 12:44 AM
  • Mood: Regretful
I can't help but ask myself... What the hell am I doing?

Lately I have only done things I've ended up regretting, choices that hurt me and things that I will hopely in time forgive myself for.

I feel like I'm letting people down, yet I know I shouldn't think that way. People keep telling me that I haven't let them down, but how come I feel like I have?
It's not like I'd betray others, but I also betrayed myself. And it feels bad.

Ofcourse it does. What wouldn't?

I've noticed that lately I have lost quite a bit of my trust - towards others as well as towards myself.
It gets in way when it comes to keeping my friendships up, but not much I could do to it right now. I can only hope it's a passing state.

I don't know if my choices are good or bad. I can't tell them apart anymore. The ones that seem good at one moment are bad later on...
I can only know when the bad ones strike back and mentally kill me for a while.

Luckily there's no game overs here... Yet.

I can only hope I'll learn, but honestly... I dare to doubt it. I pay for my mistakes, but some prices just are too high and you end up paying them.

That is something I haven't been able to avoid lately. And if I at all know my life, will never be able to avoid.


Right now, I'm lost and I don't know where my map is. Maybe I never had one.

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  • Interests: Comics, games, movies, drawing, roleplaying...
  • Favourite movie: I don't have any favourites right now. Come back later.
  • Favourite band or musician: Sonata Arctica, ofcourse. Stupid question... *Rolls eyes* PAUL SIMON! ^o^
  • Favourite genre of music: Almost anything goes.
  • Favourite artist: Good question. Will answer this one sometime in future. (Don't expect the answer anytime soon..
  • Favourite poet or writer: I have no idea. Maybe someday.
  • Favourite photographer: Do I need to have such a thing?
  • Favourite style of art: No favorite. I like unique or personal stuff. Or things that make me think. :)
  • MP3 player of choice: I don't choose them, they choose me. *Looks at all the MP3 players screaming "BUY ME!"
  • Wallpaper of choice: Something beautiful... I change it too often to say anything else. :D
  • Favourite game: Good question. I will get back to it later.
  • Favourite cartoon character: Not only one, but alot of them. :D
  • Personal Quote: I say too many things to actually have anything to say to this. : P
  • MSN: ajanhukka@windowslive.com

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:iconsutakaibagirl:
~sutakaibagirl 2 days 4 hours ago
Thanks for faving ma new dev!

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HEIL KAIBA! :salute:
Long live ze master race!
~Yugioh the Abridged Series

Avvie by =Heilos

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~RoyalSin 1 day 21 hours ago
No need to thank. :)

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- Don't go around sniffing where you're not needed... You might lose your nose. -
:icondrakomagus:
~Drakomagus 6 days 17 hours ago
Here ya goes!
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Hope ya like x3

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:iconaragonia:
~aragonia Nov 14, 2009, 4:09:15 PM
Thanks so much for the fav of my painting " Fire In The Sky ".
:iconroyalsin:
~RoyalSin Nov 14, 2009, 9:50:27 PM
No need to thank, it was surely worth faving. :)

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- Don't go around sniffing where you're not needed... You might lose your nose. -
:icongriffin1164:
~Griffin1164 Nov 9, 2009, 10:31:20 PM
salutations! I was referred by a friend of mine, he said your stuff was really good and I must say I agree wholeheartedly!

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"We cook your meals, we haul your trash, we connect your calls, we drive your ambulances. We guard you while you sleep. Do not... fuck with us."

"you are the all seeing all dancing crap of the world" Tyler Durden/ the narrator, Fight club
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~RoyalSin Nov 10, 2009, 1:39:57 AM
Why, thank you. :)

I believe the only friend we have in common would be Ruha. Is that the friend you are talking about? If that is the case, I will have to have a talk with him. :/

Just kidding, I don't tend to get mad at people if they do such kind things as to tell about meh to their friends. Sweet thing to do.

How ever, thank you for the visit and compliment. Much appreciated and all the other usual stuff my manners demand me to say. :D

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- Don't go around sniffing where you're not needed... You might lose your nose. -
:icongriffin1164:
~Griffin1164 Nov 10, 2009, 3:01:28 PM
haha, yes well...thank you for the manners :D hee

yes, it is indeed our friend ruha, :D well, if you wanna beat him up I'll just watch from the sidelines :D

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"We cook your meals, we haul your trash, we connect your calls, we drive your ambulances. We guard you while you sleep. Do not... fuck with us."

"you are the all seeing all dancing crap of the world" Tyler Durden/ the narrator, Fight club
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~ace97 Nov 5, 2009, 5:55:50 AM
thanks for the fav lol
:iconroyalsin:
~RoyalSin Nov 5, 2009, 6:24:52 PM
No need to thank.

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- Don't go around sniffing where you're not needed... You might lose your nose. -
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